Friday, May 20, 2011

Lemme Sing And Dance..Bollywood Style


Every heard a song and thought it was made just for you or the situation your in? Many of us have such songs which every time we listen to it takes us back to a certain place or may remind us of a certain someone. Music is said to bring back emotions that we hide somewhere inside us. I read a book recently by jodi picoult called sing you home which talks about the effect of music on people. Although the people she was trying to reach out too had serious issues we dont realise what music does to us in our day to day lives. I have always been very discreet about my music playlist..never lend my ipod and not even let a friend look through my itunes list. Sometimes i feel that maybe i dont fit in a particular clique cause i dont listen to popular english music. My friends and family all are major english music buffs and i choose to find my solace in hindi music. For someone who comes from an english speaking family and loves to read i cant really connect to english music. The ones i do may be old country songs, boy bands or the new age woman singing about life. But these arent revolutionary or out of box like hw people who like rnb or old school rock may listen to crazy artists. But on the other hand if u ask me about hindi songs i would know the lyrics to almost every song ever..even the ones that were made before i was born. Theres just something about listening to those beats or how those lyrics effect me. Maybe its the language and the way each word sounds so perfect no matter if it a love song or a party song. Its not like im completely illiterate when it comes to english music but on a very typical day when im lazing in bed or on the train to uni i would automatically plug my ipod into some cheesy hindi song which makes me smile all the way. At the moment also i have this youtube playlist playing in the background which 78 Udit Narayan songs ( which is on Pehla Nasha right now-one of the evergreen romantic songs).
Another thing about me listening to music is i automatically go into picturing mode..if its a party or very dancing type song i can litterally visualise an entire scene in my head which involves me in such a situation..mind u with proper outfits and group and all. If i hear a romantic song i think about a certain someone or imagine someone singing that for me. All these are serious traits of being a drama queen and maybe somewhere deep down i am. I love the stage, i love the romance and i love the music and dancing. Now only if i could just break out and tell the world this :)

xoxo
P

Thursday, May 5, 2011

The Imperfect Princess


It cuts through her skin, it breaks her heart
It drives her mad, it tears her apart.
Still she will stand with her head held high,
Even though it would be easier if she had to die.

Where is the girl who everyone admired?
Why are her eyes so weak and tired?
She always said about the worldshe never cared
But to get close to anyone she never dared.

Friends came and friends went
Some by themselves and some she sent
At one point they were her life
Then why dint anyone stand by her in strife

Forever a disspointment to the ones who were close
Piercing through like thorns in a rose
She tried her best she really did
Tried to give her parent the best little kid

But even she saw it in their eyes behind the smile
She was behind their expectations by more than a mile
Leaving her Family, friends and peers behind
The thought would always cross her mind

She reached a point where lived by the day
Who cares what others saw and what they had to say
So what if she still wasnt right
Atleast now it was her own thoughts she had to fight

Then one day he came along and changed it all
Caught her just as she was about to fall
He showed her dreams he gave her hope
That against every trouble she could cope

This feeling of being special was new
The times she felt this before were few
He was her price, she was only a mess
Still he claimed she was his princess

Promises, plans and few months later
She dint care if anyone else hated her
She had her life right here in her arms
Even distance could not do them any harm

But how long do dreams ever last
Eventually even happiness becomes the past
This time she wont blame destiny and fate
Its who she was that he started to hate

It hurts her when she takes away his joy
Cuz at the end of the day he was her boy
She promised to always be the best for him
Then why does their future together look so dim

A sorry, a few tears later nothing is better
It is then that realisation hits her
She is always the problem,its always her mistake
She needs to go far away just for his sake

She has failed to many times and hurt quite a lot
But nothing hurts as much as when they fought
No more of feelings, no more pain to bear
But how to stop loving him? How to make him care?