Whats On Your Mind? *Tweet*

Hey There (Seriously is there anyone out there?)

Gone are the days where fans waited for days together for famous filmstars to quote in the newspaper or on the news about whats going on in their personal lives..Now we have twitter. I just logged on (yes i do have an existing id for the last year i think now) and well i was lost..When twitter initially became a craze because all the famour personalities were putting up details about what they thought,what they are doing,who are they meeting and all the gossip that circulated the industry had to do with each persons 'tweet' i thought 'Hey,why dont i also join the bandwagon and see whats up with these people'...BAD IDEA...nor do i understand whats twitter all about, i also dont get what these actors are tryin to say. Either they are promoting their upcoming movies or making absurd comments which has nothing to do with anything..dont believe me..I just read a tweet that said 'Do insects feel hot or cold?'..I mean what the hell..Its called google...USE IT if u have such wierd questions. The only tweets worth reading were those of two of the famous indian journalists.
Now its not that I am completely against twitter..I mean yea it bridges the gap between the classes and the masses..let people realise that they are not inferior to famous personalities..but cmon you have to accept it..Every actor know that he has 100 odd people following his every tweet..do you really think everythin he says is the truth and not just another attempt to make more people like him or be in the news?..Hmm now thats a tweet i should put up ;)..
Now way before the lil birdy came and tweeted away there were other social networking sites such as myspace, orkut and the all time favourite FACEBOOK :)
Confession: Im a Facebook addict <3...Now dont go thinkin i was bashing twitter only cause of this..I do accept fb has its lunacies as well...
1.Status's about mundane things: "Ted is eating a burger"...really and you decided it was so important that your 350 friends knew about it? I am a healthy status updater...everyday or sometimes every second day i do have a new status...but mainly at the end of the day somehow about how my day was..No explicit details..just one line with sumthing sweet,mysterious and witty..If i wanna say more..I have a phone..ill pick it up..call a friend and TALK
2.Pictures of feet: Ok i wont only rule out feet..people put up one picture and then edit in 10 different ways and put up those pictures too..There was this fad where everyone put up these cartoon pics with captions that circulated and tagged every friend for the caption that suited them. Now the pictures were hillarious and getting tagged did bring a smile..but the notifications that followed were crazy which brings me to number 3
3.Notifications:You comment on a picture,status,wall post..bloody hell even if you just like something..be sure to get 56 notifications in half an hour..because you get notified for every thing that happens on that post after youve been there..and soooo many people want to start a conversation on a picture for some reason..I repeat..PICK UP THE PHONE.
4.News feed: I just realised i was ranting so i thought ill just put these last few together under this one...My news feed is forever full with peoples quiz results..cmon im sure your that smart to know that none of those results are real and even if you took the quiz for fun why do you have to post the result for the world to see..then you have games like farmville,happy pets and some mafia thingy..everyone is either selling melons,buying a cat or killing a man..and how is this helping you in life exactly?????..
Hehe finally..All you facebook couples..you can either be single or in a relationship..what in the world does 'its complicated' mean? Plus if you are in a relationship the whole world does not want to see your making out pictures...

But at the end of the day I love facebook and i will be going there after posting this..exactly the same way we hate the calories chocolate gives us but who can say no to a choco bar :)

xoxo
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Im sorry..No, Im sorry...

They had a fight..Yet again! She still is not sure why is he so stubborn and at the same time shes even confused why even after everything that happens she continues to expect so much out of him. As she sits there in the lawn after he takes a few steps away from her inspite of her telling him that she knows him so well that he wont leave. But in the end he does..After a little more fighting,her giving up and finally him just walking away to the train. She walks back home in a sort of blur where she cant decide if its worth goin on with but then she remembers the words she told him today...that no matter how much they fight they still love each other the most in the world and going away from each others life will hurt much more. Because just like it happens everyday its happened again today..He messages,she calls,he makes her laugh,she says i love you and then they make up.
What happens between a fight and the making up is the hard part. Cause when your fighting your sayin whatever is in your heart and that feels light and when your making up your again expressing your feelings to the one you love. But the space in the middle where you realise that they hurt you, that they did not meet up to your expectations and when the worst of all they walked away after seeing tears in your eyes is the most killing part. You replay every word that they have said and somehow it sounds even worst this time round. Ego and emotions always come in overflow..either your too proud to tell someone your sorry or all you do is keep saying sorry to someone just to make things better. Either way nothing gets solved..Things keep building up and time to time they are let out with an outrage. You always blame the other person for the change in you, noone stops to think that if you dint want the change then you could have easiy avoided it.
Relationships are based on a give and take relationship..And fights just make every couple stronger. Because couples who fight are the ones who have the interest to look at each other and realise that thers something wrong and that much of right on each other to tell the other person what they feel. Its very easy to live a relationship ignoring problems and not fight at all..but a true relationship is one where you can tell each other everything and fight and scream out things to each other but at the same time never be able to sleep at night in peace without making up with your partner.

xoxo
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Ouch...That Hurt

Hey
Its hard to fail...Its harder to get up and face failure. Everytime something goes wrong there are 100 of people who will console youa nd tell you that it happened for the best..that you have better things coming in your future. But screw the future, what about the present? What do I do now?

I dint get into the early round offers!! Thats it the plain hard truth thats gonna make me crib,cry and whine for days to come..At every point in these last 8 months i have seen friends move ahead with life while im stuck in a dead end..My job was one way for me to leave all that at one point of time..to ignore the fact that my education was put on a hold..But then what did i do? I chucked the job..Why? It wasnt a stable job, it was causing problems at home, It was causing relationship crisis. Im tired of all this..tired of chucking everything that comforts me because of someone else. 3 years ago before i even knew what was going on i was told that i had to study to australia so i built myself in such a way where i only looked at universities there,where i told the whole world that i would not go anywhere but there..Its come to a point where i know that even though i would love to stay in dubai and study and live my comfortable normal life..I cant do it!! Because of people,beacuse of my parents,because of my own expectations. But i cant even be sure that im going because here i am with no admission letter in my hand while the rest of the world is in university studying,enjoying and bloody hell accomplishing somethin in life.

Im honestly tired of hearing "dont worry its gonna be ok" "be positive" "everything happens for the best"...Yes easier said than done..Why cant anyone just shut up and let me went out all this frustration..Everywhere i went in europe all i prayed for was this admission..for the last one month ive dedicated myself to praying for this..Now i know you may think its selfish to only think of god when i need him but its not like that..All my life i believed that the best way to talk to god was in simple normal conversation..that prayer jsut made everythin to formal..but early this year after facing dissapointment in my grade 12 results i realised that maybe when you really need something then God only listens to the normal set prayers..so i listened to my mom..I prayed..with all my heart,soul and mind..And now im trying my best to keep praying..to not loose hope and faith..to still believe that yes he will do what is right is for me..Eventually!!

Screw all this now..Im gonna eat cuz i feel like im gonna fall now..im gonna loose myself in wedding preperations and ignore everyones questions about where im going and when im going...Im not going to be happy immediately..but eventually ill deal with it..and in the meanwhile everyone around me better cooperate..Otherwise..When im upset and angry..theres a side of me that noone especially the aussie unis and the dont worry type of people want to see.

Thanks for letting me went here

xoxo
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Wake Up, Its Time To Dream

Hey there dreamers of the world...
Ever just sat around on a lazy day and cooked up a dream world..Doesnt have to be anything magical like the ever famous Harry Potter(although if it is then you are on your way to writing one of the best children books of all time)..it could be an alternate reality..tiny changes in your life..things you feel if you had done wouldve changed the course of your life all together..comebacks you should have used during an argument..anything at all! Its relieving at times to just lay back and loose yourself in this dream world of yours where everything is the way you want and people say things that you always have answers to. Confession time: Everytime i hear a song i either picture a big song and dance sequence or a band on stage and yes im a part of both of those fantasy's ;)...Fantasy reminds me..people often talk about their romantic fantasies..sequences they want to happen in their romance..qualities they want in thier dream guy. Every person lives two phases in thier life...basic reality where they go on doing whatever their daily life requires and a fantasy life where they are the smartest,the most beautiful,the most loved...The only important thing being the line you draw between these two lives.
Many people do not see the difference..they incorporate their fantasy life into their daily life and somehow feel that everyones thoughts,lives and talks revolve around them. If they like someone that person definetly is writting love poems about them,if their hair is out of place obviously the whole room is noticing them and many other such absurd and small things. Selfcentered or dillusional is a comman name given to such people..However it is important to understand that when this goes out of hand it can be Schizophenia...a psychological disorder wherein a person is always living in their fantasy world..which according to me is the worlds most dangerous sickess.
Coming back to dreams and away from the bad side of it..Dreams are beautiful and the basis of life..You cannot achieve anything in life without having a dream..a mission!! My dream is to have a succesfull,loving and enjoyable life..And while i sit and fantasize about it, I will also make the best efforts to achieve that one day..
P.s. My Admission Results are out at 6 am tommorow morning..FINGERS CROSSED x

So heres to dreaming big, And living even bigger

xoxo
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The Power To Rule

Well hello there little ones...

Now...Someone had once told Spiderman "With Great Power Comes Great Responsibility"...Only if this line was made the slogan of politics,business,actors,writer and other influential people in the world. Today i was watching a chat show and an actress was talking about an Indian social personality who writes for the national newspaper. Now she said something that i feel every journalist should keep in mind..Just because you have a pen in your hand and a column in the newspaper does not mean that you can take digs at peoples character and background...Yes everyone is entitled to their opinion..but when you talk about someone who is an actress..talk about their work and not their personal lives. This is something i have noticed about various journalists..We all know about the freedom of press..but at times i feel its soo subjected to peoples personal opinions..In conservatice countries everythin is writted with such curtain drawn over it..In big countries people are hardly enlightened about whats going on in the rest of the world. The power to write in the newspaper and speak on national television is given to few and if not put to proper use you can influence the minds of various people and at times even make or break a certain individuals career.
Now when we talk about power the next thing that comes into light is business companies all around the world. The products we use in our lives if not made properly can cause ill effects to our lives...People who have the power to deliver the best and healthiest products at times just to save a bit of money sell us cheap quality products...In many parts of the world consumer courts have been opened to save the right of each individual consumer so that noone is exploited.
When we talk about power how can we forget the world leaders. Politicians have the biggest role to play in the race for power. Controlling a country means that every descion one makes will affect a million odd people and if this decision is made with personal vendetta and selfish gains than an entire country suffers. A lot of the third world countries filled with poverty,child labour,terrorism,trafficking,etc can be bought out of all these problems with the right leadership. The youth leaders have to use their new insight along with the power to make the world a lot better place..P.S. There was a time in Year 10 when i was sooo influenced by Political Science that i really wanted to join Politics..Well that dream may get fullfilled..Seeing the UN HQ in geneva this year really made that dream get a new start.
Finally on a lighter note there are many more people in the world who have the power to influence and effect individuals lives...Parents,Teachers,Peers,etc....
So this is to people in life who crave Love,Money and most of all Power

xoxo
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Its Kiddys Day :)

Heyyyy

Okie i know its past 12 am and today is considered as the 15th..but as per my rule..its not a new day till i see the sun rise again :)..Now technically yesterday was the 14th i.e. CHILDRENS DAY...well according to Indian tradition atleast. It is basically Pandit Jawaharlal Nehrus birthday and he loved children so this day is dedicated to children..and why not...you have mothers day(which suprisingly is 3 times a year) and fathers day so there should be a day dedicated to all the awesome children out there in the world. I for one had always got an opportunity to celebrate this day cause my school used to organise a carnival for it every year. Wow those were the days..the amount we would dance..put henna on our hands..it was the one day we got to wear casual clothes so it was the time to dress up as well.

Childhood...today as im at the brink of turning 18 and becoming an adult i feel like i can really look back at it all now and get this big smile on my face. It was the time when you never cared about anything..you could have fun in absolutely mad games and you never held a grudge against anyone. Swings,cartoons,icecreams that was life..i could eat all day and not care if i was putting on wieght or anything..but somehow every child wants to grow up and every grown up wants to be a kid again..The grass is always greener ont he other side as they say. The sad part is that there are children int he world who are deprived of a childhood..due to poverty,household violence,communal problems among other things..The years in life that make you the person that you are..these are the years that are stolen from these children. All i pray is that every child in the world gets to experience a beautiful childhood so that when they grow up and life is not fair they have memories that they can look at and smile :)

A few years back i had written a poem on 'Teenage Trauma' because at that time i thought becoming a teenager was the hardest thing that was happening to me but obviously i hadnt expected adulthood to be running along....and though i think this poem is on my other blog..i will put it here too

It feels like I turned thirteen yesterday
The happiness of becoming a teen what can I say
Never expected life to get so complicated
Wanna go back to the kiddy days which I hated
Looking around to see if I might
A sweet friendly face in sight
But the days seem so long
Everything going on is wrong
Go are the days of hide and seek
All we do now is pick on the weak
Gossip seems like an everyday routine
Never realize if to anyone we’ve been mean
Sitting down to catch up on books
All I remember Is that dreamy guys looks
The girl who scored an a plus
Dropped down to a c without a fuss
Pigtails, cartoons, and video games at loss
All we think of is clothes and lip gloss
But is life as bad as we see
Are we half as bad we seem to be
Still in our heart lives the little girl
Who once in a while does take a twirl
So give her a chance, bring her back
Bring back the happiness which you lack
Say no to all wrong things
Speak the truth even if it stings
Have a picnic with your pals
Become the same old kiddy gals
Cause if you don’t you might miss a lot
Will become the depressed person you want to be not
Being a teen has its fun and frolic
Just don’t grow up to be a workaholic
So here’s a teenage girl telling u
Do whatever your heart says to do


xoxo
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Baby...Im gonna fly xD

Life may flash in front of me before I die,
But can i see it all now if I try?
There are old things I want to see,
There are old places where I want to be.

With experience in life,also comes fear,
The wonder of exactly how I got here.
I know I have learnt a lot,
Some things fell into my lap and for some I fought.

Today as I grow up and turn eighteen,
There are still a lot of things unseen.
Places where I want to go, People who I want to meet,
A lot more difficulties in life that i have to defeat.

So today as I take a step ahead,
Ill do it in style by painting the town red.
Ill walk out straight with my head held high,
Baby its time for this girl to fly.

So heres to new beginnings and a fascinating end,
New challenges,new acomplishments and new rules to bend.
Take the lessons learned and my attitude along,
Cause this time 1 write my own song!!

xoxo
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Im Still Here...Booooo

Heyyyy
Okie its been a week since ive posted and i really dint want to get into my old laziness of not posting anything :p
Well the latest buzz in life is the Birthday Planning..You know for someone who loves event management its very supring that planning my own birthday is a such a pain..Maybe its cause when your planning for anyone else you dont have any personal tension..Here i have to worry cause certain people dont want to be in the same room as others..family and friends together...my choices might be different from what other people life...ufff!!..Hehe but well its going nice...ive gotten my hall fixed, the cake is getting made, invites have been sent out..And the stage is set..Lets see how it turns out :)..Whatever happens im turning 18 xD...
Plus the trip down to 18 is turning out to be pretty nice..Im becoming a little more religious, I finally watched a horror movie (paranormal movie 2)in the movie hall and most of all ive realised that keeping a grudge with anyone and making extra efforts to please anyone will take you NOWHERE...Well maybe i am maturing..What say ;)...
Ohhhhh..Shona had his freshers on thursday..what a night that was..we got all dressed up went and danced the night away..Got the best couple dance prize btw :p..Its when nights like these come along you realise that at time you just need to chill..Forget all the tensions of the world and just loose yourself to goood music :)...
Diwali was also a nice night...I burst crackers with friends and it was such a relief that this year nothing decided to burst in my hand..hahah..Dont know weather all this is gonna be there wen i go to aussie so might as well make the most of it now :)
Well for now i better run off..Need to get some things done..Hopefully ill have something better to write about soon..These weekly updates are just a good way to preserve memories..Well not that im saying memories are not special..
But i do need to write some serious stuff soon too

xoxo
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N.O.V.E.M.B.E.R

Ellooo,

Although i pretty much have nothing interesting going on..I just HAD to post today. After all its November xD...Now why is this month so special? Well for one on the 4th I will be attending a college fresher party..and for someone who dint have an official prom in high school this is sort of a big deal, second that on the 26th i get my university offers..so fingers crossed for that..and finally and definetly the most important..Its my birthday this month!!...I turn 18...wohoo..now maybe even if i turn any age its going to be that a big deal for me..Im one of those people who countdowns to her birthday..expects everyone to treat me special this whole month and many other birthday tantrums ;)...But i guess thats needed right? People say that after 30 women start hiding their age and birthdays become more of a boon..The thought of that shocks me..Aging gracefully and enjoying each birthday is something which i plan to do all my life. So for now i have to get down to planning my birthday...Its gonna be a lotta work and hopefully it will go well.. :)..

As for the other great things about this month..Admission is definetly gonna be one hell of a day..i really hope i get into Swinburne..cause a part of me knows that the course is specially written for me..and when something is sooooo superb..not getting it really leaves u with such resentment that you cant really enjoy the second best thing you get. Hehe so lets all hope that my birthday wish comes true :)

And as for freshers..its sort of a welcome into this fabulous month..Ive shopped and got this pretty black dress with nice accesories..However as i was talking to my friends the biggest fear of any girl...Someone else turns up with the same outfit as you...hahah one of the many things a girl worries about :P

Anyways heres to a great month ahead

xoxo
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Letters To God

Hey there

Just sometime back i happened to see this movie called 'Letters To God'. Now its a friday afternoon and as usual dad and myself were bored so we decided to pick a movie to watch. This one in particular happened to be about this 8 year old boy Tyler who is suffering from a rare form of brain cancer. He writes letters adressed to God as a way of talking to him. These letters are not asking god for great miracles or anything..just a simple way of showing faith in god. From his postman,his family and his best friend all are touched by this gesture of his and at the end of the movie we see how his act spreads the word and faith of God among everyone in his life.

Sometimes we go through the smallest of problems and our faith in God gets shaken..we wonder that if we have asked God for something with so much of need then why is it that God does not give us that?...I used to have this superstition that every time i truely thank God for something hes given me, someone whose come into my life..He takes it away from me. For a very long time this made me fear thanking god. But times like this when you see people who are suffering from illness, people who have lost everything in natural disasters or people whose lives have come to such crossroads where they cannot see a ray of light show such belief in god is when you wonder why is it so hard for us. Last year in Feb i lost my 16 year old friend...She passed away from meningitus and for some time after seeing her family in such pain and seeing how much of life she failed to see i really wondered how Gods ways work. This year I did not score as well as i wanted in my Grade 12 exams and i doubted that even though God knew how much i wanted it why dint i get it...But then somewhere later i realised it was all a part of a plan. The second best course is more to my liking, and after all maybe i had not put that much of effort in myself. Prayer is a very helpful thing in life..i might have not seen some great miracles in my 18 years but i do know that talking to God helps..its like talking to a friend..women often complain that whenever they are sharing problems with someone the other person wants to give them advice and all they want is someone to listen...Well thats exactly what God is..He listens..Sometimes as a kid you wonder that in such a big world if God has the time to listen to you everytime you pray..But then again....Thats God..He can do things we cant even imagine !!!

So since i do have a mailbox and i want to know how writing to God feels i thought ill put in my letter here....

Dear God,

Hey...A few months back on my trip in europe i had prayed and asked you to show me that you are there..everytime i entered a church i hoped that you would show me some sign that would maybe bring me closer to you. I dont go to church that often and maybe i am not the ideal catholic but i do believe in you..I have never doubted your presence or your miracles. When i tell people that my motive in life is to go with the flow..its all because i have left everything in your hands. I do know that we all have to make our individual effort but also that you have a chosen destiny planned for us. God next month my life will go through two big changes..I turn 18..And maybe if you wish i will get admission into the university of my choice..Whatever you choose lord i want to say ThankYou..Without the fear that you will take anything away from me..I want to thank you for all the smiles you have given me. And i would always want to feel this close to you..Maybe even closer.

Amen

xoxo

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Reality...Its sooo Fake

Heloooo...so this is me rushing in a post after a few days :)

The last few days went in the rush of anniversaries,talking,fighting, sleepin and all the other daily stuff i go through so we will not get into that. The main point of this post being ive finally got enough inspiration to write about Reality Shows!! Now this is something u cant live with nor can u live without..something like boys. They make no sense, u wanna beat them up half of the time but this u cannot ignore their stupid antics. Over time i have seen the wierdest of the wierd. In some people will tell the truth to earn cash and in some people will asnwer questions about stuff i dint know even existed. In some people will hook up and break up on national television and in some people will stay in a locked house for 3 months,completely cut of from the world just to sit nd bitch about each other. In the normal world when you have problems with someone even though u see them everyday you may not tell them truthfully how you feel. But when your locked up in a house and you know you HAVE to live with them why would you confront them??? Its like purposely making things more uncomfortable...especially when you know 1000 of people are watching that show. Couples in some shows even make out in front of cameras...and here i am who has to look around 10 times to see noones looking to even give shona a peck on the cheek hahahah. Well either its all pre fixed or cameras jsut drive people crazy...Or maybe sometiemes money is so powerfull they make people stoop down to such levels. Well the other day i was talking to a friend about if we were ever in such a show...was suprised to know that in our friends circle itself we have a lot of people who if put in a house together locked for that much time would create quite a stir. Looks like we all are pretty controversial in our own ways..Well for now im gonna get back to talking and then to watch my tv shows..Got a long day of shopping ahead of me tommorow..need to pick up a perfect sexy red dress for my shonas college freshers :)..Hope i find a sale *fingers crossed*

xoxo

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Bring Back The BUZZZ!!

Whats the big hype over weekends? When i was in school it was always the two days in the week that i had to bear my parents running around the house all day and god forbid the maid was on holiday my mom litterally bought the house down. It mainly involved family meetings and lunches/dinners at peoples houses who i could not even stand. It bought the drastic end to my diet because if we never found anywhere nice to go out to eat we would resort to ordering pizza at home. It was the two days that my teachers decided to flood us with homework because obviously we do not have a life. Two days away from friends and even the thought of calling them would lead to dirty looks from parents because that would significantly mean 'we dont have time for them'. But things change...my mom is still hyper on fridays but on saturday she is usually at work half the day so i can sleep in peace. And for the last 8 months of vacation that ive had i dont even remember half the time if its the weekend until and unless some movie releases tht thursday. Weekends are supposed to be the time for partying and chilling according to some folks..but what people dont realise is that this kind of weekend only applies to those who are 18+ and do not live with their parents. I spent last nite(thursday) talking to one of my friends giving him utterly rubbish did you know facts and he responded by showing me all the possible emoticons on facebook chat. Thats how bored we were...and today the ever so lazy friday has begun with me getting up at 10 am to have a south indian breakfast with a few family friends and coming home so bored that i actually snapped at my mom,listening to boring songs, updating my blog and now will further resort to reading and watching tv till the evening dawns on and i have to go for some 13 year old birthday party. Im sure im gonna spend the whole time there starin at either my phone or at my cousin trying to make some kind of conversation that would save me from falling asleep. For now i should go back to my adventure filled life of reading, checkin facebook like 15 times in 5 minutes..like something life changing is going to pop up on it,and randoml changing channels to watch people who cannot act to save their lives. End of story...weekends make me crabby!!...Hopefully aussie weekends will be slightly more entertaining than this...

xoxo

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Edit these moments in my Life Movie

Read..readd..read...blurr...confused...dizzy...wierd feeling...knees give away...FAINT!!

And that my friends was the highlight of my day. Now i have had my fair share of embarresing moments which includes slipping from my school stairs on various occasions, one especially where the entire student body was leavin the buiding and saw me on the step. Silence fell over the entire corriedor and for some reason i dint get up for like 30 seconds till one of my seniors had to rush over to me. Now for someone who thought she has seen everything to was well suprising. What started of as a very normal day of getting up late,getting out,reading ont he train,meeting up with shona, picking up my shoes for my sisters wedding and playing some pool ended in a rather 'black out' way. After convincin shona for 15 minutes that i had to leave for home i got onto a crowded train into the ladies compartment, found my little corner to stand and began to read my book hoping that the next 40 minutes to go away fast. After completing like 4 pages which i should mention were rather depressing ones things started to blur out for me...i started feeling dizzy,nauseous and jsut plain weak. After standing like that for like 2 minutes my knees gave away and the next thing i know i was flat on the floor with my eyes closed. My ears still supported me and i could hear people freak out around me. The attendant rushed over to me in seconds and got me to my feet after giving me water. What followed was a little more of dizziness on the chair,lot of fussing over, a long lecture from dad and well my utter embarresment of collapsing on a train in peak hours. Till now i dont know what caused that but the consequences of it were rather unpleasant...Some lady had actually broke the emergency handle all thanks to me. Im just going to forget about that and continue to stare at my pretty shoes and be thankful that im finally getting paid from work tommorow...

Embaressing moments are always suprisingly those moments we can remember clearly throughout our lives...looks like im always going to have a lot to remember.

P.S. Created my birthday invitation xD

xoxo

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The Foundation Of Our Lives

Heyaa,

Ever believed something just cause looking the other way would be too hard? Cause you are so comfortable in the present situation that any change in it will cause an uproar. When we enter a relationship of any kind it takes very less time to achieve comfortablilty and compatibility but a very long time to develop trust. People say that it takes very little to break your trust, but i dont believe so. When you get extremely close to a person your trust is built on such a strong foundation that even when you hear or find out something that may shake that trust, you will not be able to digest it. All along you just pray that what you have found out is not true, that someone you trust so much has not done anythin to hurt you. However life is not a bed of roses and things dont always go the way you want them to. People do things intentionally or non intentionally that may hurt you...Some of it may even be because of you or maybe just because they are scared. After looking at things again and again you finally decide to confront the person..expecting to tell you the truth. Now even though you know the truth is going to hurt you, you still want to hear that. And after all this when someone has the audacity to lie to you again..to tell you that what your thinking is wrong..making up some excuse..emotionally 'blackmailin'...It bloody hurts soo much that you dont know what to do. How to do you react to that? Atleast when you expect someone to tell you the truth and maybe apologize you have the reason to show anger,scream and maybe sort out the situation. But now ur stuck at a crossroad...the more you get angry at the person, the more they try to make you feel guilty about not having faith in them...all the crap about telling you brain that what you know is not true gets even more stronger now...But then time goes by...you want a proper explanation,you want an apology, you want the truth...Bloody hell you just want to talk to that person. But when the other person knows that you know the truth or even if what you know may not be true they know that you dint believe them...Things may never be the same..Or maybe even if they do...these memories will always be there. People you trust are the people who are important to you, people you have shared very special moments of your life with...And when they hurt you..It comes to where I have been quite a few time in my life and maybe I might go there again..And each time this happens you tell yourself that you will never trust anyone but yourself...But we all know that thats not possible...After all no trust is equal to no relationships and when there are no relationships in ones life...then where does your life stand???

P.s. I found and Awesome 18th Bday Cake Picture :D.....

xoxo

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A Pretty Face Adds To A Pretty Heart

Hey there beautiful
This happens to be a very hurried post as I am sitting to watch Bigg boss. The main point being after this i have to actually go out and walk all the way to the beauty parlour at like 8pm just to get my eyebrows done. Its dirtyly humid and i know im gonna get bored walking alone but i will still go..Why? Just cause tommorow i have to go for dandiya with friends and im dressing up and i think i should look pretty. The efforts we girls make just to look nice to someone. We all say we want someone who will love us for who we are..but we still will not sit with unwaxed legs,all ponched up and all old clothes. We go shopping,to the parlours and keep our weight in check all our life. Sometimes people even go over the top to look 'pretty'. Well i for one am not in the mood to be the odd one out, hey cmon dont give me that look...i like the appreciation and the looks that i get when i make an extra effort to look nice. Haha but the hillarious job is when on tv in serials and reality shows girls always look decked up...they even go to sleep with make up on. Again in this metrosexual world, men are as particular if not more than women about their looks. My dad is one of those people..his washroom is soo filled with new cosmetic products. Even i dont fuss that much...Well im all in for equality..even if it is about this..hahah.
Well im gonna run along now...Got a lot of work to do..Its time for the princess to get all decked up...

xoxo
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Meet Me Halfway

Hey

Been off for like two days now because i think i was so disconnected with myself. Started off yesterday in the worst possible way...Got up at 10 30 when i was supposed to be somewhere at 11 and then went on to find out that my metro card that i had just filled with 60 bucks had gone missing. Been getting into fights with someone really special which led to one of the wierdest feelings ever. Ever had this feeling that you cannot live without a person but you very well know that living with them is going to be hard. But what every strong relationship is based on is mutual give and take..changing yourself a bit around the person to make life easier but not changing yourself soo much that you may loose yourself completely. I really wonder is that fair in love and friendship? Arent these relationships supposed to be ones you choose for yourselves? Then I always thought that a person falls in love with you for the person that you are , but maybe thats just a young princess's fairytale dream....There are however some things in life which you cannot give up one. These are called your Principles...For me this has always been my career...I am ready to give up my entire life to go abroad to study just to build the foundation of a great career. i may change a lot of things about myself to adjust to my society but not my basic values. However today i saw something very different about myself...I always potrayed myself to be a very strong person and maybe emotionally with the rest of the world i am...but when someone raises their hand on me in the slightest manner i have come to realise that i am filled with such a shock that might be fear but somehow hurts more than that. And can you believe it this certain someone just lifted my chin and pushed it away..such a small thing and such a big reaction? Maybe it is..or maybe it isnt..after all this is the person who promised me that he will take care of me against the whole world. Anger does a lot of bad things to people...people say things that are deep in their heart..some may not even be true,but they remain with the person who are they said to all through their lives,extreme cases lead people to raise their hand which when is done in a household can lead to domestic violence.

If you can get a fine balance between your self identityand a relationship then you are on your way to a successful life...But till then enjoy fighting and making up...believe me that has its fun too :D....

Damn this post was supposed to be about reality shows and it turned into this...Well so be it...And by the way Congrats to the Indian 4x400 relay team for winning gold in the commonwealth games. Oh and just finished the book 'The Chocolate Run'...Its fabulous..story of my life in a wierd way :p....Off to watch flightplan now.

xoxo

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Boom Boom...Its Fight Night

Ever gone up to someone and directly told them off on their face? Told them all the problems you ever have with them? Finished it up all together? There may be a few of your'l out there who might have gone to some limit in doing such a thing but not till a person reaches their ultimate breaking point do they every go out and have a full fledged confrontation. Now when you ask someone why they wont do such a thing you will get to hear a variety of answers:

1.I could not be bothered.

2.He doesnt even deserve to know

3. I dont want to cause any uncomfortable situations,etc.

But the main answer being that people are worried that maybe they may say something which might not be able to be taken back. How much ever you hate someone(and that is the extreme limit of causing a fight) you do not want to break someone with your words. Because the fact that they could hurt you was cause you let them be close to you. And when someone is close to you,you share memories which cant be forgotten that easily.

But the problem begins when other people get involved into this fight...friends who have to be diplomatic or take sides. Either way they get involved. Its one thing to be diplomatic but i personally find it ridiculous to take sides. A fight is between two people and when either one of them has not done anything to you why would you hold such a big grudge against them? Or maybe thats just me. Shona told me today that im very much like his mom(and im definetly taking that as a compliment) cause we both listen to peoples problems and get so hassled by it even if it does not involve us. Yes i do accept i am like that. I can be very diplomatic and listen to everyones side of the story but it does hurt me to hear someone being upset. And this comes from a person who has had her fair share of fights. Couple of years back things suddenly got screwed up in my ever so peacefull life and i had to go through one of the biggest fights in my life with almost all my friends. I lost a lot that year...Friends,happiness,peace of mind,weight and even myself to a limit. I believed that you cannot trust anyone and that everyone is selfish and just thinks about themselves. Thought that in this world how much ever you do its less for people so might as well live in the moment. And all this started with a few words spoken out of place by a certain 'friend'. 2 years later i back on talkin terms with that person. Yes we are not that good friends and nor do i trust her again but i have moved on. I am happy,have my group of friends again and all this because eventually you realise that you can always be happy and there will always be people in your life who will be important to you. Even the ones who may have once hurt you eventually come around(even if its without an apology).

But more than such fights what hurts are those moments when you realise that it is a very small misunderstanding that causes a fight with someone who is very important to you. When you are ready to give everythin up,change yourself completely only to bring a smile on that persons face. People are different even the ones your closest to, this means that there will be a difference of opinion. What matters is how you solve it,How you make the other person understand what they mean to you. basically finding a middle ground where the both of yourl can be happy.

And anyways fights are what make a relationship stronger. The honesty to tell each other what you dont like, the passionate defense of your own opinions, the consideration of one anothers feelings, the finding of solutions and definetly the best part...The making up(especially when it involves something more than jsut a sorry ;])

xoxo

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The Mouth Was Made To TALK

You know when men say that we women talk a lot and we defend ourselves claiming that we dont and its just minimilistic sharing of general information. Heres a revelation: Secretly we know that we talk even more than men accuse us of. Where on one hand men need specific topics to talk about, we dont even realise how we can keep talking for hours together without having any predecided topics. What starts of as a simple comment goes on to evolve into a long conversation and at the end of it when you think about how your conversation ended and the topic from where it started the connection is such as that of Santa Claus and the desert( I have no idea why i used that example :P).

When did I finally decide to accept this little habit? Well you can say it all started late last night when my friend called my on Skype from australia at 2 am cause it was morning over there and she wanted to have a quick conversation which somehow ended at 5 am...Now this is even though i was sleepy and she had just gotten up...we talked about everything under this planet...What was important, And what wasnt important also. Maybe thats how best friends are..or maybe thats how girls are. Because after sleeping till 12 pm and hardly getting up, one of my friends just got back from india after 6 months and we were on the phone for like 2 hours.

It feels so nice at the end of it doesnt it? I dont know how men dont enjoy this.. How can they not just forget the rest of the world just to talk to each other? Another persons problems and another persons jokes are enough to drown out any worries in your own life...What sittin for hours cannot solve, will get solved if you just have a heart to heart conversation about it with someone. And with experience im saying...My best catch lines always get made when im on the phone with a friend.

Yes i do accept that sometimes this excessive talking can lead to things like gossip which noone enjoys. I mean cmon ive heard things about myself than even i dint know, thats the power of gossip. But if someone is talking about me i must be definetly worth their time aint it? So let people talk..It burns calories, Its a good way to spend time, It spreads information and Bloody hell ITS FUN xD

xoxo

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A story...A book...A part of life

You know what is one of the great joys in life? Something that lies along the lines of chocolates, food,love and travelling...It is the great pleasure that Books give you. A story, a character and a life all comes together into this paperback binded copy that rests in your hand as you snuggle up to read. You can forget where you are, what your problems and ever if anyone is calling you, you are oblivious to the world. By the way i somehow noticed today that a lot of books have the main phrase as 'How far woul you go for love/to save a loved one?'....Looks like love will always be something everyone would want to read about. From a very young age i went down the road of reading books everytime i could. I may not be one of the best reader, i am very fickle and can get bored easily so a lot of my books are half finished. But for the lucky few that hold my attention i can remember those stories forever. The other day i had to pack my entire bookshelf into a carton as one of the many things that come with leaving the country. Now though i thought i could refill it with the big list of books i gave my mom when she was leaving for India she came back with 2 books because for some god forsaken reason the bookstores in india did not have those books. But angels appear in different forms dont they :)....I have always found the bookstores here to be very expensive and could not jsut go and buy a lot of books in one go. But out of the blue today the best bookstore in the mall goes on a crash sale and sells books from 10-40 bucks...Now thats a sale i would not miss for the world(which is kind of true cause i had to leave shona halfway to rush to see my dad at the bookstore). Lines and lines of books...low prices and a lot of other book addicts. Wow what an evening it was....I am back home now with 23 books and a bill of 530 bucks. And i have never felt this satisfied in a long time.

But now lets not take away the spotlight from the other great happeneing of today...JENGA xD..no i am not talking jibberish. It is a new game that shona bought for me today. Basically it involves buidling blocks and truth and dare...now aint that a rare combination? We spent about 2 hours playing that in a kiddy playground on top of something like a tree house. We left only when it came to the point of being hounded by kids. So all in all it was a nice day...even if i may have lost the game 3 out of the 4 times we played :P

xoxo

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Lifes Little Suprises

To The End Of An Awesome Day : CHEERS xD

No sulking today, No crap talks ...NOTHING....Sometimes days come by where you dint even expect them to really good and even while they are going on you are so immersed in them that you dont get to sit back a moment and think about how awesome they are. I can tell you one thing to properly define how badly i wanted to write about this day...I just stopped my One tree hill epidose half way to sit and blabber to this little white box. And let me tell you thats not something i normally do. Now when i got up late, could not find my jeans, realised my shoes were broken and my wallet was fast depleting i dint expect to bump into such a beautiful day. But there it was... Perfect weather, suprisingly short walk to the metro station and the early morning freshness. What started off with me progressing into the interestin bits of my book known as The Chocolate Run which i have been attempting to finish for a very long time now went on to meeting my Shona at the station and immediately get into our chattering which suprisingly though we meet everyday is like we have not seen each other for ages. We always end up having soo much to say to each other, so many jokes to crack, so many new stories to tell, so much more to get closer. Well aside from the next 2 hours that just flew away we ended up going to grab a quick bite at KFC and though me being a nice weight concious girl i have to accept i have been craving a twister for quite some time now. So that bite was heavenly and whats even better was that it was his treat :D....And then comes the part where till forever i will always be suprised. Now every girl will dream of the most imposible guy she would want, but not in her wildest dreams will she ask for a guy who makes a better shopping buddy than any of a girlfriends cuz cmon...u ask for something thats remotely possible. But whats given without asking is the best. My shona is undoubtedly my favourite shopping buddy..he will not nod and smile at everythin, at a certain point today he even told me what colours look nice on me and that seeing me in a skirt is always a pleasure. Its these small things that make a boyfriend a bestfriend. We went on to spend the rest of the evening in one of the most epic way : Playing truth or dare. I dont know how i thought of it...what made me ask him to play, experience says that the game is always the best in groups but even i must have not had such a great game. Dares such as proposing in hindi and gettin 3 free icecream tastes made us laugh so much that even now i cant stop smiling.

I know when each of these things are thought about individually they are nothing out of the ordinary and maybe later in life when someelse reads them they may wonder what was so extraordinary about the day. But i know that for however long i remember i will still be able to smile thinking about the image of him carrying my shopping bags, making me laugh, teaching my how to whistle and biting onto that chicken like he was in love with it. Its these small moments that make life what it is. Every great day is made my mini moments...What one big suprise may not do, many little happinesses's will. You want to bring a smile on girls face, bring her a single rose everyday for the rest of ur life. Even a 100$ orchid bouquet once in a month will not do what these 1$ roses everday does. Cause life at the end of the day is not about waiting for the sunshine, Its about learning to dance in the rain.....

xoxo

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Bart Simpson...My Genius =)

Welcome to Day 3,

I think im officially sinking into a 30 year olds lifestyle...And not all are the good parts!! Im stuck in front of the Tv for most of the day, Im craving shopping without being worried about costs(when truthfully i dont even have that much stuffed in my wallet), I officially consider settling down and have my next 10 years litterally planned out. Now if u would have asked me couple of years ago what i wanted to do when i turned 18..I would have said enjoying everyday, wearing my old clothes again and again and not having time for any gadgets. Now on one hand where i like the fact that i can see my life 10 years from now, enjoy every moment of planning and all that stuff that great companionship brings along with it. But on the other hand i want to be a kid..well not the innocent naive types, but someone who is unsure about what life will bring, enjoy the feeling of falling in love for the first time and maybe get off facebook and star world!!

Well anyways instead of cribbing anymore im gonna let this smile remain on my face and talk about all the Tv shows im stuck with. Currently simpsons in on tv and Bart is being as adorable as ever. I have Gossip Girl , 90210, How I Met Your Mother and Castle downloading...now what does any other 17 year old on holiday want? Oh my car driving dreams are down the drain as my parents have decided to have a fit of their own. However my Shona has promised to teach me how to not only drive a car but also ride a bike soooonn...but lets home he keeps he promise and moreover lets me ride a scooty pep down the main highway ;).

Talking about my shona...Its been a year since i told him i liked him and well...ran away!! Now dont go laughing and judging me...you cant blame me..I was a little 16 year old girl and i had told him i liked him solely based on SPARKS i felt...I never even knew what he felt about me so it was a big step :)...Feeling real proud of myself...As a part of the celebration we went to watch The Switch...The new Jen An movie on insemenation...Well the movie was ok ok...but it made my realise how some women really come to the point where they litterally crave kids. Maybe every woman is born with a motherly instinct...I should say..I already know I want 2 kids...And though someone says he is gonna trick me into having 3...I think 2 is the way to go. And maybe after your 30 and your actually going down the adult way you need someone at home to remind you what forgetting everythin and being a kid means.

Haha this has to be irony, Here i am talking about how i want to remain a kid and Bart Simpson is worried about the same thing. Now what are the chances of that? ;)

Well Im off now..My shows are downloaded and I have some more time to waste on Facebook xD

By the way if anyone ever tells you the good things only come when you become an adult...Look at them, Laugh and WALK AWAY!!....Being a Kid RULESSSSSS

xoxo

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Custom Designed Fairy

Good Evening xD

I had my first look into college/uni life today..and quite oddly it wasnt my own uni. I happened to visit my Shona at his college today and the campus life overtook me in such a way that for quite a while i was just lost in thought. Now the thing with me being that when i am thinking very deeply i dont seem to put it in words properly. So where on one had i was looking at every passing person nd having a mental evaluation about them my company thought i was just simply not paying attention to him. Now how do u explain things like these to..well...boys? Something as simple as the fact that girls cannot eat in front of boys does not go into their heads so something complicated like the fact that a girl can judge everyone that walks past may not go down well. So i decided to remain quiet and smile. On a less complicated note...I am officially eligible to apply for a driving license so that is simply great!! After years of imagining myself behind the wheel i will finally be able to go ahead and see that dream come true. Another thing ticked on the 'Things to do when I turn 18 list'. Another thing being i wont be driving a lot in Aussie...but who cares...I have a license buzz will not die down soon =). I think my psychology skills may be finally working or im just being a good girlfriend cuz i happened to have a deep heart to heart with Shona about our career choices...All i know as of now is...We both are bloody creative people and one day using my business skills i will earn enough to make these dreams also come true. Ok news flash: Current tv show showed that a man in love named a star after the girl he loves....Awww sooo cute...Its what a girl would want...Big,Magnificent, And ironically 'Out of this world'...Now this will seem different but even if someone would draw a star for me and write my name on it, it would be equally special. Which brings us to the title of this entry....Someone asked me today why i love him sooo much? why do i make promises to stay with him forever? Its because he thinks im specially made for him..Now when someone tells you with soo much love that they think you are sent into this world just for them...how will u ever go away? When you love someone thats one thing...but when someone responds with equally passion it makes love stronger...it makes it mature...it makes it everlasting...It makes Love ..True Love

xoxo

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Running Down The Runway

Sometimes there comes a point in your life where you are well aware that things are going to change. I know when you come to think of it, why would someone want to break out of a routine, well settled and stable lifestyle just to say 'take the plunge' and look at what new. But guess what? This princess is going to do that :)....And you know what the strangest part of this whole scene is...I am the most happiest in my life i have ever been at this moment. I have someone to love, I enjoy what anyone out of 12 years of school would want-about a year of holiday. And still i know theres a part of me that is awaiting the change. The princess is going down under- To Aussie xD!! As a new part of life i will be off to australia, melbourne to complete my education..To finally study something i want to. I turn 18 in 48 days....Yes i am one of those people who calculate the days left till my birthday...and this new blog is sort of a self present/commitment....Some thing to hold me down...Somewhere to write what i go through in a day. Nothing heavy, Nothing too philosiphical..I have my other blog for that :p...This is just me...And my attempts to fly