Hey Been off for like two days now because i think i was so disconnected with myself. Started off yesterday in the worst possible way...Got up at 10 30 when i was supposed to be somewhere at 11 and then went on to find out that my metro card that i had just filled with 60 bucks had gone missing. Been getting into fights with someone really special which led to one of the wierdest feelings ever. Ever had this feeling that you cannot live without a person but you very well know that living with them is going to be hard. But what every strong relationship is based on is mutual give and take..changing yourself a bit around the person to make life easier but not changing yourself soo much that you may loose yourself completely. I really wonder is that fair in love and friendship? Arent these relationships supposed to be ones you choose for yourselves? Then I always thought that a person falls in love with you for the person that you are , but maybe thats just a young princess's fairytale dream....There are however some things in life which you cannot give up one. These are called your Principles...For me this has always been my career...I am ready to give up my entire life to go abroad to study just to build the foundation of a great career. i may change a lot of things about myself to adjust to my society but not my basic values. However today i saw something very different about myself...I always potrayed myself to be a very strong person and maybe emotionally with the rest of the world i am...but when someone raises their hand on me in the slightest manner i have come to realise that i am filled with such a shock that might be fear but somehow hurts more than that. And can you believe it this certain someone just lifted my chin and pushed it away..such a small thing and such a big reaction? Maybe it is..or maybe it isnt..after all this is the person who promised me that he will take care of me against the whole world. Anger does a lot of bad things to people...people say things that are deep in their heart..some may not even be true,but they remain with the person who are they said to all through their lives,extreme cases lead people to raise their hand which when is done in a household can lead to domestic violence.
If you can get a fine balance between your self identityand a relationship then you are on your way to a successful life...But till then enjoy fighting and making up...believe me that has its fun too :D....
Damn this post was supposed to be about reality shows and it turned into this...Well so be it...And by the way Congrats to the Indian 4x400 relay team for winning gold in the commonwealth games. Oh and just finished the book 'The Chocolate Run'...Its fabulous..story of my life in a wierd way :p....Off to watch flightplan now.
xoxo
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