Letters To God

Hey there

Just sometime back i happened to see this movie called 'Letters To God'. Now its a friday afternoon and as usual dad and myself were bored so we decided to pick a movie to watch. This one in particular happened to be about this 8 year old boy Tyler who is suffering from a rare form of brain cancer. He writes letters adressed to God as a way of talking to him. These letters are not asking god for great miracles or anything..just a simple way of showing faith in god. From his postman,his family and his best friend all are touched by this gesture of his and at the end of the movie we see how his act spreads the word and faith of God among everyone in his life.

Sometimes we go through the smallest of problems and our faith in God gets shaken..we wonder that if we have asked God for something with so much of need then why is it that God does not give us that?...I used to have this superstition that every time i truely thank God for something hes given me, someone whose come into my life..He takes it away from me. For a very long time this made me fear thanking god. But times like this when you see people who are suffering from illness, people who have lost everything in natural disasters or people whose lives have come to such crossroads where they cannot see a ray of light show such belief in god is when you wonder why is it so hard for us. Last year in Feb i lost my 16 year old friend...She passed away from meningitus and for some time after seeing her family in such pain and seeing how much of life she failed to see i really wondered how Gods ways work. This year I did not score as well as i wanted in my Grade 12 exams and i doubted that even though God knew how much i wanted it why dint i get it...But then somewhere later i realised it was all a part of a plan. The second best course is more to my liking, and after all maybe i had not put that much of effort in myself. Prayer is a very helpful thing in life..i might have not seen some great miracles in my 18 years but i do know that talking to God helps..its like talking to a friend..women often complain that whenever they are sharing problems with someone the other person wants to give them advice and all they want is someone to listen...Well thats exactly what God is..He listens..Sometimes as a kid you wonder that in such a big world if God has the time to listen to you everytime you pray..But then again....Thats God..He can do things we cant even imagine !!!

So since i do have a mailbox and i want to know how writing to God feels i thought ill put in my letter here....

Dear God,

Hey...A few months back on my trip in europe i had prayed and asked you to show me that you are there..everytime i entered a church i hoped that you would show me some sign that would maybe bring me closer to you. I dont go to church that often and maybe i am not the ideal catholic but i do believe in you..I have never doubted your presence or your miracles. When i tell people that my motive in life is to go with the flow..its all because i have left everything in your hands. I do know that we all have to make our individual effort but also that you have a chosen destiny planned for us. God next month my life will go through two big changes..I turn 18..And maybe if you wish i will get admission into the university of my choice..Whatever you choose lord i want to say ThankYou..Without the fear that you will take anything away from me..I want to thank you for all the smiles you have given me. And i would always want to feel this close to you..Maybe even closer.

Amen

xoxo

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