I dont care how my day is..As long as i have my Jimmy Choo's

When i was at my 'tender teenage' age and thought about what kind of life i wanted for myself professionally there was just one answer in my head, I wanted to earn enough money that i could shop without looking at the price tag


Well life has sped through the last 5 years and im no longer a teenager and till now i was following the customary norms of growing up and developing more idealistic values like having a family, being happy in my job , world peace :p...But then one fine day while sitting in Uni getting bored between classes i decided to go and pick out a movie and watch it..Now don't judge me..But it was Sex and the city..yes the movie does not teach you anything..for god sakes it doesn't even give you any form of entertainment and you sit there after 2 hours wondering why did you just do that to yourself. But one thing that Carrie Bradshaw does do is remind a young girl of her one true passion...SHOPPING. Call me materialistic if you want but the joy of holding those perfect pair of shoes or that fantastic gown in your hands is as good as holding your man (OK maybe not, but it comes close). You see her with a walk in closet as big as my previous apartment and suddenly i wanted all the things i did 5 years back. 








Talking about those prized brands i should mention that i gave up my Christmas gift this year just to get myself a Chanel N5 and how happy i am with my decision. So what if i use it like a stingy person and treasure it like a baby it makes me a happy little thing. The next thing on the list? Christian Louboutin or Jimmy Choo shoes..maybe this Christmas..or maybe after first-sixth salary combined :P.

And while im on my 'prissy' trip lets move a little away from clothes and go to my next passion Food..currently im going crazy and dying over those small circle of heaven.. MACAROONS!! the crispiness,the cream, the fabulous flavours!! If something could change me into a dessert maniac its these little (bloody expensive) devils.

Well so that was me..after one year..back to blogging and enjoying it i should say..lets see how long it lasts this time (God bless google for not shutting down my account)

Gimme a Break!!!

Theres a thin line between being irritated and the point where you're 'pull-your-hair-out-frustrated'. I'm walking that line right this minute!! This month was supposed to be about finding a job and making some money,going to the gym and loosing weight and finally about partying my first semester break in uni!! But what am i doing? Well just to review i woke up this morning to 3 rejection emails from companies, my body aches so going to gym seems like a curse and i need to stop eating. Finally i fell asleep last night watching Bridget Jones Diary so we can estimate how interesting my current social life is. Yes Yes my stupid horoscope tells me to keep up my positive thoughts but quite honestly I'm reaching the dumps faster and faster. This is not how this was supposed to be, this is not how anything is supposed to be. I was supposed to come to Australia and start new, but at the moment new seems like the worst thing ever.


Well forgetting my constant rants about utter nonsense I'm going to try to write about something else just so that i can calm myself down before i go to the tailor who chooses to charge me 40$ just to stitch a 3 inch patch in my jeans. Last night before i decided to go all crazy and watch the movie about the obnoxious British damsel i saw another movie i.e. "That's What I Am". Saying it was just heartwarming may come as close to defining as i can. The movie is set in 1965 in the 8th grade class of an American school and focuses on children coming of age,being different,bullying and homosexuality. You realise that even children who we say god loves the most can be so cruel to one another. Who do you blame for this? Isn't it said that whatever they learn is from another figure? Their parent, society,media?? Who do you blame when a boy trashes a girl just cause she is considered 'ugly'? Sometimes society creates norms which we all need to step out from, be brave, be the one person who is ready to ignore everything and just be what they are. It is said in this movie that HUMAN DIGNITY + COMPASSION = PEACE. Maybe we finally have our answer to world peace. Maybe tolerance is all we need, the feeling of letting someone be, of not trying to change people according to our will and fancy.

Other than that I'm going to get back to Colouring. Yes a little odd for a 19 year old to be sitting and colouring in her spare time(maybe that's where the social life went for a toss). But the filling of blank spaces with bright colours and the attention to detail can engross me for hours. The same goes with writing. Ive recently tried my hand at some Hindi shaayari. Don't know if its any good, but here's one of them.

Khafa hoke unse do din bhi na dur reh sake
Khafa hoke unse do din bhi na dur reh sake
Unse juda ho kar ek pal bhi na khush reh sake
Rona hi hain to unki baahon mein hi ro le
Bhula ke yeh saara jahaan bas unke hi ho le.

xoxo

HOLIDAYS...Fun???

So its been quite a while and I finally am free for a month. No uni and at the moment no job as well. Am I enjoying myself? I'm supposed to right, or that's what the point of holidays is. But NO I'm not. I am now 10 days into my Winter semester break and i already want to rip the hair off my head. Lets just say that sitting in bed all day listening to music, only moving to get food is not the most interesting thing in the world. Its not like I haven't tried to get busy, went around giving my resumes to random shops yesterday hoping that one of them would be mad enough to hire me. Planning to join the gym in a few days which eventually is gonna be less fun and more work (but what the hell, at least then i can eat my chips guilt free) and most of all with my plans of being student editor going down the drain i am now starting to regret not going back to Dubai for holidays.
That's weird right, one small plan tanks and your left wondering why did i put everything else on hold for that. I could been in Dubai with family and friends but instead I'm here counting down days to August 8Th. All this just cause I believed i had a shot at being chosen for the University magazine. Well that and also that i don't think my parents miss me enough to bring me back in around 2 months :P
All that aside i just had the most wonderful 8 days with my best friend who I had not met for more than 2 years. I swear if she was a guy we would've already been in one of those forever lasting relationships. We may be complete opposites one minute but we both know that no one gets each other the way we do. You realise your relationship is strong when even after 2 years of only talking occasionally you take 2 Min's to get back to cracking stupid jokes,laughing like lunatics and going completely crazy. Now even if it takes another 2 years for us to meet again at least I know that nothing will ever change.
Well even I know that this post was my way of passing some time so till i think of something innovative again its BUH BYE!!!
xoxo

Im Not Changing..So Stop Trying!

As we go through life and meet new people we eventually somewhere down the line find someone we want to spend the rest of our lives with. Now considering that it is said that every individual is unique or even narrowing it down to an astrological element and saying that there are 12 kinds of people you have 1/12 chances of meeting your perfect match. The rest of the time when we may not be lucky enough to find our soul mates which results all relationship requiring a bit of compromise and sacrifice. But when do you reach that point where all you are doing is changing for the other person. How do you know when you have changed so much that you lost yourself completely. I am by nature loud,talkative,fun,confident (kind of arrogant,possessive,sarcastic) and overall quite a nut. But whatever I am..I'm Me. If you tell me you like me, if you get close to me is it wrong for me to assume that you are doing this because you like me for the human being i am, both qualities and flaws? I learnt how to accommodate to the point where i am sitting here and trying to figure out why did i not stop myself. Is love that blind? Maybe this is the reason there are commitment phobics out there. Its easy to be dominating in a relationship or if by nature you are one that likes to follow. But what about the people in the middle, the one's who are rational and know the right mix of the two. Where on one hand you may think that this quality is amazing, it is because of this that many a relationship have failed. Because we try to analyse and rationalise. Sometimes even the best relationship are based on utter nonsense, I'm not saying that theres no love, its just that the more you think the more you fight.
"I'm trying to change you for your own good" Anyone out there got this line from a boyfriend or girlfriend? Excuse me if i needed to change i would have in the last 19 years. Believe me i have had my chances. The one thing you want to turn around and ask this person is if they are in a relationship with you or a figment of their imagination that they want you to be.
I know this may sound egoistical but I LOVE ME..and i don't believe theres anyone out there i would want to change for anymore. Marilyn Monroe once said "I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best"
This is what I have to say:



You say you love me,then why the frown
You say I am a princess then where is my crown?
You say that i am special,then why should i not be me
You say I'm not good enough, then who should i be?

Not even for a moment did i try to change you
Somewhere overnight my ego and attitude flew
I forgot all the insults and all the hurt
But today I'm reduced to just dirt.

I could scream and make people cry
But today my tears refuse to dry.
For 18 odd years I used to be the best
But one boy came along and made me like the rest.

Enough is enough, not any more
It will take a year to heal,or maybe even four
But eventually ill laugh or at least smile
One day again you hear me from across a mile.


Okie while looking for that quote i found a couple more of Marilyn Monroe's quotes which i thought HAD to be shared.




*"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

*"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."

*"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."

*"I don't know who invented high heels, but all women owe him a lot!"

*"When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them."

When I Say NO I Mean N-O!!!

The most intimate act between two individuals is the coming together as one. it is called making love for a reason. In today's world where values have changed and not many people wait for the right person till marriage. But at the end of the day these are choices made by individuals. You cannot blame a person for wanting something and then life's path changing somewhere down the line. As long as both the individuals involved have a mutual understanding and are fully aware of what they are getting into. If so then it results in two people being closer than one can imagine. Can lead to the creation of a new life. Sex is a result of feelings ,love and passion at the end of the day. Isn't it??


What happens when that choice is taken away from you? When you don't have a say about who touches your body. Your body is the single most precious thing you have that no one can claim rights on. Then why is it that everyday around the world women are subjected to sexual abuse and tormented just because some guy could not keep it in his pants. This is not about feminism or about telling the world that women are as smart as men. This is about asking for our basic rights, the right to our own decisions. When a lady gives her body to a man she does it with love and respect. With expectations that he will never hurt her. But when a girl is walking down the street or sitting in a bus and his hounded upon by beasts what can she do? She screams, she fights and sometimes in the worst cases she is silenced. One of the most vulgar, cheap and indecent acts of crime is rape. What does a man think when he forces himself upon a woman? does he feel more powerful? does he enjoy taking away her dignity and hurting her? Even asking these questions makes one shiver and you think how low would a person have to stoop to think like this. But not one, not two hundreds of men over the years have given into lust and greed. Women from ages of 8 to 80 are not safe in today's world and we need to educate our girls from a very young age about what touch is right and whats wrong. Offenders are not only random men on streets but sometimes present in our live and our families. Relationship abuse has gone so high that some women fear to trust a man anymore. The judicious systems attempts to catch such men and put them behind bar. The average sentence for sexual abuse is 3 years...Honestly i don't think that's enough. In murder you take away someones life but in such cases you make the victim live the rest of their lives with the memory of this horrific incident. So why is the penalty not the same.



A while back in Toronto a police inspector said that "Women who dress like sluts are asking for it". Excuse me, if we want it we know how to get it. We understand what flirting, what falling in love is and what the implications of our actions are. No woman no matter how she dresses or behaves deserves such torture. To take action against such thoughts in people a 'SlutWalk' was organised. People have revolted against the name saying it undermines women but tell me one thing, if this was call the "All Women March" would the cause change even one bit? This walk basically meant that ordinary women came down to streets to peacefully march against all sexual assaulter. Several men also joined this rally and one of the many slogans that i really liked was that "Really men know how to take a NO for an answer". This walk has now to come to New Delhi in India and a few days ago when i was going through twitter i was shocked at what certain men had to say. In today's modern generation where India is booming men say that this walk is against our culture and that Indian women just want to follow the west. Is out country free from rape? No it isn't, women who are clad from head to know are getting abused in villages. This protest solely wishes to educate the public against such crimes. To show the victims that they need not blame themselves. We fight against diseases,we fight on the basis of religion, we fight against corruption so maybe its high time we start fighting for ourselves. The walk further will also be conducted in Australia which shows that today's woman knows how to voice her opinion.She can fight with another woman but if you as a male even choose to torture of us you will power like you have never imagines. I am a girl and I know that we are still far away from escaping the notion of a male dominated world but for now all i am asking is let us at least fight for our basic rights.



She can be your mother, your sister, your friend, your love or just the girl sitting next to you on the train. She has a brain and heart and shes a creation of God. So learn how to treat her with respect.