Theres a thin line between being irritated and the point where you're 'pull-your-hair-out-frustrated'. I'm walking that line right this minute!! This month was supposed to be about finding a job and making some money,going to the gym and loosing weight and finally about partying my first semester break in uni!! But what am i doing? Well just to review i woke up this morning to 3 rejection emails from companies, my body aches so going to gym seems like a curse and i need to stop eating. Finally i fell asleep last night watching Bridget Jones Diary so we can estimate how interesting my current social life is. Yes Yes my stupid horoscope tells me to keep up my positive thoughts but quite honestly I'm reaching the dumps faster and faster. This is not how this was supposed to be, this is not how anything is supposed to be. I was supposed to come to Australia and start new, but at the moment new seems like the worst thing ever.
Well forgetting my constant rants about utter nonsense I'm going to try to write about something else just so that i can calm myself down before i go to the tailor who chooses to charge me 40$ just to stitch a 3 inch patch in my jeans. Last night before i decided to go all crazy and watch the movie about the obnoxious British damsel i saw another movie i.e. "That's What I Am". Saying it was just heartwarming may come as close to defining as i can. The movie is set in 1965 in the 8th grade class of an American school and focuses on children coming of age,being different,bullying and homosexuality. You realise that even children who we say god loves the most can be so cruel to one another. Who do you blame for this? Isn't it said that whatever they learn is from another figure? Their parent, society,media?? Who do you blame when a boy trashes a girl just cause she is considered 'ugly'? Sometimes society creates norms which we all need to step out from, be brave, be the one person who is ready to ignore everything and just be what they are. It is said in this movie that HUMAN DIGNITY + COMPASSION = PEACE. Maybe we finally have our answer to world peace. Maybe tolerance is all we need, the feeling of letting someone be, of not trying to change people according to our will and fancy.
Other than that I'm going to get back to Colouring. Yes a little odd for a 19 year old to be sitting and colouring in her spare time(maybe that's where the social life went for a toss). But the filling of blank spaces with bright colours and the attention to detail can engross me for hours. The same goes with writing. Ive recently tried my hand at some Hindi shaayari. Don't know if its any good, but here's one of them.
Khafa hoke unse do din bhi na dur reh sake
Khafa hoke unse do din bhi na dur reh sake
Unse juda ho kar ek pal bhi na khush reh sake
Rona hi hain to unki baahon mein hi ro le
Bhula ke yeh saara jahaan bas unke hi ho le.
xoxo
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